I have a dilemma. I’ve mentioned the Hub several times, which is the forum associated with James Patterson’s Masterclass. A user had a posting on there a few days ago, looking for someone to collaborate on an epic series with him. I responded, because it sounded like fun and I couldn’t get the idea out of my head. Turns out, he likes me, and wants me to join him on this quest.
I want to do it. I really, really do. For no reason that I can concretely define, I want to be a part of this project. But, reason is rearing its ugly head. It’s asking me all these questions, and they’re good questions. Questions like:
- You don’t even know this guy. Why would you enter into a partnership with someone you don’t know?
- Do you even have time for this?
- What about your other projects? How will you work on all these different projects at once?
- How much time are you willing to commit to this? Epics are long, by definition. What if this project takes a decade?
- What if we don’t mesh? What if you end up hating the work you do together?
These are legitimate concerns, and I’m left wondering whether they’re simply springing from fear or if I should seriously consider them. On the surface, the answers seem simple enough. If it got to be too much, I could back out at any time. If it’s taking too much of my time, I could put less time in. Simple.
The idea of this project does scare me. It’s a big project. And it could royally fail. Or it could be amazing. The beginning of any project is scary, so this one is no different. Should I let that fear stop me from even trying? Is this a fear to be conquered, or is it one I should genuinely step back from? I don’t know the answer.
I have a philosophy that I use when I’m shopping, particularly if I’m splurging or looking for presents. That philosophy is this: If I can’t make up my mind, the answer is no. I’ve only been debating this collaboration for little more than a day, and I don’t know if that’s enough time to decide that I can’t make up my mind about it. I’ll give it a few more days, and see if I can come up with any answers.